TRAVEL DIARY

A weblog regularly updated by Jodi Rose.

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

10:58 PM
Posted by jodi rose

collingwood swamp
no really, that's a geographical fact, not a state of mind!
I've almost recovered some fragments of equilibrium, that hadn't been completely dissolved in my inner turmoil of the past few weeks. Thanks to Lisa for a fabulously decadent weekend, providing entertainment for members of my family who came to visit - from Love TV opening night at Duckboard Place, with the interactive tent and some cutting edge discussion of sex and romance, everyone from c-grade celebrities, to a bondage mistress and the cute camera boy (hi!); followed by a day at the races in cranbourne, visiting the horses in their stables first, then watching from the members lounge. very zhooshy. my mother has now decided that gambling is a good way to supplement her income - anyone with the gamblers hotline, please pass it on!!

Am also much closer to resolving my conflict between consolidating my creative practice, and making a coherent logical argument to support said process - realised I just need to separate myself into two different streams. Kind of like developing a mental disorder, I guess. No, really, it's going to be fine.
When I was trying to tell Julian exactly what my problem was, suddenly recognised that it was largely being contrary by nature, and not liking having people tell me what to do. Even when it's for my own good.

And I have been very cheered to receive some feedback from a couple of you lovely readers out there, some of which I would like to share. The first is from someone I haven't met but who has been in contact over the last year and the second from one of the most diverting writers I am fortunate enough to correspond with (although I do nothing but give him a hard time, at least he replies!).

"I read your diary entry and would like to offer you some love and encouragement as it seems you could use it . please accept it . i give it with smiles and admiration... naturally things migrate to and fro ... ride the waves and don't forget to have fun."

Indeed and fun is exactly what I'm going to have. Goddammit!

"I caution you against covering your writings with too much dry dust, because it makes your words all the more difficult to read. and some people have allergies. we live in a litigious era, so I recommend you safeguard your writings by covering them with a clear contact [or equivalent] layer, thus enabling a dry dusty effect without the deep lung penetration that fine particles are renowned for. And contact looks glossy in certain lights, which is what a section of the population - for instance, those in the waiting room of the local doctors surgery - are searching most earnestly for."

Absolutely, I could do with some more gloss, I wonder can you have your life airbrushed into perfection? For now though it's all serious, quantifiable, contextual facts. None of this spurious philosophising and emotion - well at least not in my academic writing. Which means you'll be getting a lot more of it here!