TRAVEL DIARY

A weblog regularly updated by Jodi Rose.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

6:59 PM
Posted by jodi rose

ABraCadabra Harris St, Ultimo
long silence due to intensive bridge listening. Maybe one day I will decipher the message in the wires.
Then again, maybe not. Haunted by the existential questions. Time here is drawing close to the end, a rising sense of panic which I try and stifle by various means. Where on earth am I going after this? Can't really go back to admin work or waitressing - well, I can but would much prefer not to - it's been an incredible charmed 6 months, and now I'm used to being a full time artist, really don't want to stop. Guess we'll see what the final product is and hope that it leads somewhere.
Ben came in and listened to the musical improvisations, he was really excited by them and gave me lots of very specific and good suggestions for how to weave all the material together. Lucky, as I had been completely overwhelmed and listening to it last week on my own decided it was all crap and we'd have to start again. Ah the artistic temperament. A blessing and a curse.

Finding myself able to be more present in everyday life, and go deeper in the last few weeks. This is my aim, whatever the external circumstances of life may be, to stay grounded and focused and on the path.
of righteousness, I'm not so sure :)

Friday night had many fun and crazy adventures, in a bacchanalian spirit - pre-solstice celebrations, I have since decided. And it is after all the darkest time of year here in the southern hemisphere, even though the sunshine during the day is still warm in this very mild city. Getting dark around 5pm not so much fun. Waiting to hear about funding for trip to Copenhagen for Overgaden sound festival, and Helsinki for ISEA. State of limbo - hard to plan ahead. Feeling the urge to have some kind of settled home - nomadic container house, or inflatable down to a suitcase would be perfect. Sometime the physical world is so constraining. Then again, it has it's pleasures too....
must be time to go home now, am in danger of becoming completely obsessed. instead of just mildly. although as sophea pointed out, you can't actually BE mildly obsessed.