TRAVEL DIARY

A weblog regularly updated by Jodi Rose.

Monday, February 7, 2005

1:04 PM
Posted by jodi rose

in melb under cover at abc southbank. guerilla sound artist operation underway.

really enjoyed listening to trashy love songs on the flight down - chatting with roger mills last week for how much I liked hearing nelly furtado - 'I'm like a bird' in the bar on top of the novy most bridge, bratislava - of course we won't be playing that pop on furthernoise, he said, but agreed it was fun once in a while. I'd recently written about it for brandon labelle's radio memory project as it was one of those songs in my head the summer I left melbourne and moved back up to sydney to try and get this bridge trip off the ground. there was a lovely sense of circularity to then hearing it on top of the bridge when I was finally on the trip to record them.

Still on pop culture, was very excited to see concept of 'vibrating at a higher frequency' make it onto the OC - [which I was watching on video while packing 500 CD's into 250 covers - I liked the juxtaposition of esoteric and trash going on there] - reading about exactly that concept in the Sufi book 'the mysticism of sound and music' a few months ago.

Definitely trying to tune myself to a higher frequency. Mostly it's going well, am engaged with so many fabulous people doing great work in their various fields, having really energising interactions and lots of fun. But one or two people on a lower vibration have slipped through recently - it's interesting when your public persona shifts a little, and people stop seeing you for who you are, and only notice what they imagine you can do for them. It's a fairly new experience for me, not having had this level of access to resources or bandwidth or networks before. Mostly I'm around people who are so genuinely passionate about the work they're doing, that it's really exciting to find ways to help facilitate that - when someone is really pushy and obviously out to further their own agenda, all the hairs on my neck stand on end, and hackles rise.
And hey, after 10 years and 10's of thousands of dollars doing my own thing, off my own bat, and developing the profile and good will that I have through ongoing reflection and constantly striving to be a better, more giving and positive person, I'm damned if i let someone walk all over that.

Boundaries. I'm starting to see why people have an entourage - it's really exhausting putting all your energy into getting things out there and then dealing with peoples expectations of you. No wonder I stayed hidden for so long. You really need good people around you as a buffer zone. They are out there, but yet again I'm running around doing most of this on my own. Looking forward to helsinki, having the wonderful miss static and kate to play with.

This week is exciting, the culmination of many years dreaming and getting out in the world to create this crazy scheme. Although having the worst case of - 'how am I getting away with this, when are they going to realise I'm a fake?' - ahhh you're having an attack of the pretendies - said Anna last night, a wonderful woman and circus performer who worked in las vegas with cirque de soleil after many years with circus oz and as a kid with the flying fruit flies - everyone gets that feeling, she reminded me.

Once I stop trying to organise an 'event' and publicise it - kind of into the viral marketing idea, which seems to be working. It goes against the grain to be trying to get media attention - very much a go with the flow philosophy, if people notice then great, if not, well at least my friends will be there.

Time to get back to celebrating this amazing journey and having actually finished the CD. It's my party and I'll run it how I want to. See you at Loop 23 meyers place melbourne Wednesday 9th feb 8pm. xx