TRAVEL DIARY

A weblog regularly updated by Jodi Rose.

Friday, July 29, 2005

3:50 PM
Posted by jodi rose

notes from hoop performance

personal, practising internal space
attempting to master tricks for different body parts
moment - being in the moment
start terrible, get better
movement and stillness
getting back into my body - regardless of shape or size
being comfortable in skin
confidence
art is easy - committing to a simple process and maintaining it
intimacy - breaking through surface tension between people
reveal layer of self - break through again - pull apart - drawn together
tension and release

statements about being an artist from weekend australian review
projection on wall - with text
like kinesiology testing - fail/succeed for each muscle/limb
fish bowl space? audience on balcony and narrow corridor -
or big rehearsal room
you only see fragments of me
conjecture, story, rumour, myth, misinformation

Discussion with Derek

new routine - get up an hour earlier
throw on comfy shoes, clothes, brush teeth, drink cool glass water - and walk for an hour - don't think about anything - keep walking
come home, eat weetbix with soymilk, fruit.

commit to simple process. continuing

process - humour, sadness, poignant
where do you start - with learning hoops? what are the steps?
play to a cliche - 1930's czech display
dexterity and beauty, patterns

discussion with Threes Anna

what do you want to tell?
I am vulnerable?
I am beautiful?
what is the core?

peep show - voyeur
vulnerability
you have nothing to hide
revealed but secret
vulnerability revealed
window opens/closes - woman inside can't see audience
black out windows - only see eyes
corridor dark, room light
row seated & standing
vulnerable/revealed

breaking through layers of intimacy - pull back - move towards
practice for an hour in the mirror - until you find something and think - THIS I WANT NO-ONE TO SEE - then it needs to go somewhere.
building up arc to make it presentable

not peep show - more performing/practice to camera, with audience passing by in corridor. still screened from them being in the space with me - why do I always need to be behind glass? experience of depression - feeling behind glass, cut off from the world. clumsy, working on a new skill but definitely not mistress of it. yet.
joining the hoop troupe when I get home. fabulous fun.

what are you saying?

I am strong but I am fragile
I wish to hide but must reveal myself
I am part of my artistic process

aesthetic - 30's cabaret artiste - internal sense of self
white wig, figure hugging dress, sparkling jewels, lipstick 30's kiss curls

play with drama of rehearsing in private space, going on show
how do you end it? walk away... - or walk onstage to finish - lights on, curtain up, bow, audience applause.

girl on the bridge - vanessa paradis - knife throwers target - sense of going deeper into the danger of self - depths that you can potentially get lost or drown in.

how do you bring yourself back from the edge?
what are the paths you need to take to maintain sanity?
to function in the world?

how do you let go of everything that keeps you solid and stable, and come back from the experience? what is the bridge between those worlds?

I feel like crying writing this - do I break down in tears - because I can't do it? or because it reveals me as being too vulnerable?

is there a moment that lets the audience IN?
pull myself together, and go onstage.
little cabaret stage set up, with curtains and lights.
finding a process a simple routine and sticking to it
seeing beyond the facade, seeing the cracks - leave the audience with sense of vulnerability and sadness - the fragility of what keeps us together is the same thing that separates us.

don't be afraid to go deeper.