TRAVEL DIARY

A weblog regularly updated by Jodi Rose.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

9:03 PM
Posted by jodi rose

Crumbling and messy tonight. I guess it had to happen. All that high energy socialising, meeting so many people, having strangely intense connections, and then nothing. Like the smoke gently curling from Lucas's second home speaker rig at his noise gig on thursday night, I seem to have missed something along the line. Got my wires crossed. Signal to noise ratio seriously out of phase. Not only here with new and unreadable situations, but other places too, remote transmissions glitchy and making unpleasant energy vortex appear. Hmmmm.

I've been channeling it into art for most of the day, focusing on noise and glitch for the second video sound piece, and that is satisfying, to a point. After that though, you need more human interaction and comfort. It's that disconnect as well, between public persona and high profile engagement, with personal circumstances and situations. Does my head in every now and then. This is a 'now'.

Went for a swim, thought that might help. The pool was completely still, it started raining, gorgeous. Floated in the raindrops for a while. Then lightning. Dear me. Such a fragile rose petal today. Someone left the cake out in the rain.

Here I was, thinking maybe there was some chance of things making sense after all.

Really can't do much more of this. Eternal optimism just ran out. Que sera sera.